Happy Feckin Holidays ¬_¬ What an amazing first post, but i’m here to spam the internet with my complaining, so hi (:
To start, people just suck. And i’m not singling anyone out, I mean everyone. Every single person in the world, Sucks. Know why? Cause no matter what anyone says, people dont change, ever. I won’t mention names, but they know who they are and I don’t care who i’m insulting right now, i’m in a mood, fuck off. So my friends pregnant, wahey [/sarcasm]. I got nothing against her being like preggo and shizz, but I wish she’d look after herself more, for the baby’s sake. We’re taking this more serious than she is in my opinion, and I don’t like it. She needs to grow the hell up if she wants to keep this baby, of course i’ll help her and all that, but at the end of the day, it’s her baby, not mine, and I don’t wanna be looking after it all the time. She’s amazing and I love her to bits ofcourse, just bugs me that she doesn’t seem to be taking it as serious as the rest of us.
More people that get on my tits, and here I will mention names cuz I couldn’t give a shit if she reads it. monika [Her name doesn't deserve capitalising.] Swear down WHAT IS IT WITH THIS INBRED BITCH! So I like a guy loads, the first day she comes out with us, she’s all over him, after I made it perfectly clear he was mine! After that, I like this other guy, who she starts hanging round with everytime i’m there! Then I get a boyfriend, I’ll give you 3 guesses who has a crush on him. What a pisstake!
On that topic, I really really really love him (: But i’ve got to one of those points again, the one where i go completely emotionless and question every good thing in my life, you know the ones i’m talking about. Happens every 5 or 6 months or something, It’l probably end in a few days or something. I’ve come to the conclusion love is pointless. It’s only words, It’s only ever going to be words, cause face it, no ones psychic, so we have no real proof they mean it. They only give you words, even if they say they’ll do anything for you because they love you that much, who’s to say he’s not lying like everyone else did? At the end of the day, Words hold no meaning to me anymore, because they can’t be proved. And no matter what, no one is going to be in a perfect little relationship crap forever, because if either you don’t love them anymore, they break your heart or they die. Your going to get crushed at the end of it no matter what happens in between.
You can tell i’ve been questioning the point of life again. The main things people say, we have to stay in school so we get good jobs and get lots of money. If i’m gonna die in like 60 years or something, what the hells the point of doing shit loads of work so I can make money i won’t even use so I can just die at the end of it. Whats the point of any kind of relationship? Everyone’s gonna die one day, if you don’t know them, you dont have to feel upset cause you wont have anyone to lose. I don’t even know what other reasons there are for living I guess, just so people can taunt you all your life cause your just not good enough. Yeah, I know i’m not good enough, what the fucks your problem with it. Retards. Shit I can be depressing when I try.
So on the random side of things, Christmas Show at school was pretty awesome, my guys and girls rocked out loud, trying to think of something nice to say so I don’t go all insulting and shizz, it was cool. More randomness to explain the title, Music is my life, hopefully something to do with music will be in all my titles, Band names, lyrics, or just the word music (: Pasta, I ate half a bowl for tea, it was nice, Peter Pan, they tried to make me watch it in drama class, and I didn’t [went down to chrismas show rehersals and chilled with peoples]. And nothing much else to say really, got the idea from Marcah to make a random blog [if your reading this I LOVE YOUU (:] Tomorrows last day of school before we break up for christmas holidays. Check out http://store.fueledbyramen.com for most of my christmas list (: Hurley Paramore Hoodie #1 on my list hehe. And even more randomness, i was on googlegooglegooglegoogle.com at school and put googlegooglegooglegoogle on in all the boxes til they were all really small, but big enough to see the words you typed in, and typed a message and took a picture cause it was pretty awesome. Even more randomness, I do not understand the film Donnie Darko and shall wiki it right now (: Happy Holidays Everyone!
–Claireyy The [CocaColaRobot.]
